[Tortured Artist Without An Art Form]
Who I am when no one is watchingWho can it be now?
2007-06-23
So, remember last month when I said I'd be posting more now that I'm unemployed? Yeah, it also helps to have internet in order to do so. It's been a very odd month of transitioning for me lately, and I guess I haven't really known how to compartmentalize (Mitch is that the right word?) and deal with all the changes I've tried to make.
First of all, I quit smoking. I am sure one day it'll make me a happier, healthier person. But ask Mitch about that one. I have not been a happy camper. But it'll be 3 weeks tomorrow. I think I can do it!
Secondly, I'm moving up to Tuscaloosa. It's actually turning out rather well. I'm meeting more people than I have since I moved to Alabama 3 years ago! Interesting, intelligent people that challenge me and make me think.
I'm also trying to join Mitch in his "giving up the bitterness" thing. It's hard to do sometimes. I've carried around my bitterness with me for so long, that it feels like I'm losing a friend. I know that things are looking better and better with each day. Optimism is a VERY weird feeling.
I have a job that I like. I go to work, and I come home and leave my work there at the office! It's so weird. And I get to tutor someone I work with in math, which just made me happier than I can really express. I helped her on thursday during my break, and I came back to my desk just singing away. I was in the best mood ever! Someone else asked me why, and I said "I got to do math today!" I got the "look". The one that is usually reserved for when I tell people I teach math... Oh well. It's my passion, I can't help it.
This week has taught me quite a few things. I know it will sound cheesy, but I really have to embrace the fact that life is short. My friend Alex from college, only 27, went in on Monday to have brain surgery. He had a huge tumor on the left side of his brain, and he's finally out of ICU and recovering, but it's a long road ahead. It was amazing that my simple email was so appreciated. I told him to get better soon, and as soon as he did I'd go out to Arizona and see him. I got a short reply that simply said, "Jen, I knew I could count on you." I also learned an important thing. Tell the people you care about that you care about them, while they're still around to hear it. Simple enough, but I guess I never really thought about it until now.
Yes, this has been rambly, but I have uninterrupted computer time...and it's been a while. :)
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